Selfish

This post will not be interesting. It won't contain a humorous story or any kind of fun pictures. It's just a post that I felt compelled to write for my own benefit. Writing has always been therapeutic for me and this is just one of those times that I need to lift some things from my shoulders in order to feel a little relief.

The past couple of months have been a roller coaster ride of emotions for me. I have been in a constant struggle with myself during this most difficult time. I seem to bounce around from feelings of grief, anger, blame and hopelessness to feelings of acceptance and wishful thinking. I've been on this cycle for what seems like forever to me. I've spent many hours praying for strength and giving myself pep talks. Every day is a little better and with the help of my God, who never gives up on me, my bad days are getting to be fewer and fewer. I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel.

My husband has been my rock and our friends and family have been my saving grace. I cannot tell you how much the prayers and encouraging words have meant to me. People who only know me through this blog have sent their love and prayers and guys, they have been felt! I really feel so fortunate to have so many loving, caring people in my life. Justin and I are excited to see what the next chapter in our lives will hold and we look forward to the day that we can bring a child into this world. We know God will continue to bless us and we praise him daily for his love. Please continue to keep us in your thoughts and prayers as we continue on the path that was laid out for us.

In the meantime, I am going to continue to keep up with all of you. You're happiness makes me happy and reading about your families gives me hope for the day when I can share with you stories and pictures of my own family. It WILL happen. I have faith.